The Lovesong Writer

you held me up when i was down,
you were strength like my very own.
for that i'd be eternally grateful.
when nothing seemed perfect,
you made things fine.
when i was blind,
you made me see.
i was in a dark cave and you came,
you took my hand and led me out.
for that i'll never forget your love,
my never-wavering friend.

-su rin

4:01 pm;
Still waiting for you-

go to sleep little girl,
sleep like there's no tomorrow.
sleep through the night little girl,
until all your troubles fly away.
don't cry little girl,
nothing can hurt you here.
dreams are just dreams,
nothing but a mass of illusions.
so fear not little one;
i'll be there by your side,
when you can't wake up from that horrible nightmare.
i know your fears young one,
for i have the same ones too.
so why don't you just go to sleep?
and i'll take care of everything else.

-su rin

3:17 pm;
Still waiting for you-

hey you!
yes YOU!
weren't you my friend once?
the one who was supposed to stick with me
through thick and thin?
you use copyrighted materials - yes, it was MY copyrighted materials
THE UNORIGINALS .
so STOP trying to flatter me.
just get out of my life .
get out and stay out.
don't give me that crap,
you're just another liar.
a black mark tainting my innocence .
so when you DO get out,
don't forget to slam the door when you leave too.
i'll be glad to see your sorry butt leave.
GOOD RIDDENS-

-su rin

p.s - the three golden rules of writing: be original and creative, use swears when neccessary and don't forget to mock joey while you're at it(:

4:00 pm;
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i swear the english standard for kc has once again risen to greater heights. i can't even catch up now. all the choice topics for our essays were all mature topics, topics that would require you to think in a logical, adult manner. the comprehension passages weren't any better. set in front of us (the sec ones) was some hard to understand passage about speech days being boring (which i totally agree). but of course, what more to expect from a school with such a "high standard of english". well, on to more cheerful matters, discussing exams are all too dreary and depressing.

i edited cheryl's first chapter of the story she was writing in honour of the great joey(: but due to several reasons only known to myself and cheryl, i cannot reveal the contents of this marvellous chapter. (sorry joey, if she's not going to tell you, then neither am i)

as the good girl who always does her homework, i felt it my duty to buy cue cards and write my notes on it in preparation for my o levels which will take place 3 years later. (see, what did i tell you? i AM the good girl) nah, just joshing you. i'm just making this notes for the final year examinations in which if i do not at least get into the top 10 ranks, my parents will brutally plan my murder and skin me to death. (once again, i'm still just kidding) but this will seriously come in handy for the o levels. the notes are just a flip away. well, all that's done here is done. my task has been accomplished. i therefore bid you a very pleasant farewell.
-su rin

p.s - i think i'm being possesd or something cause something has caused me to write in this fashion which i usually do not use.

6:50 pm;
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i simply love fridays. fridays signifies the start of the weekend. fridays mean i can stay up as late as i want to and sleep in late the next day. it means no rush work. it means using the computer! it means going out with my parents. it means pestering them to get me new stuff! lol. :P AND most of all, it means no school for the next two days. it helps though that i have very little "studying" classes on fridays. first two periods english, not exactly studying right? i love english. next two periods chinese, as usual chinese is not something you can study for either, unlike science and history. after that is recess. then ART! for two whole periods i'm in music heaven. listening to music, talking, laughing AND singing. okay, and i have to draw too. then the FIRST "studying" period of the day, i'll give you a clue, it has something to do with numbers. *wink wink* as much as i love numbers (especially big ones, $$), i do NOT like the teacher. i DISlike her. she seems to always pick on me. *sigh* life is NEVER fair i guess. then the LAST lesson of the day. homec. cooking delights. yummy. (: then free. at last! merdeka. yay!
-su rin

3:37 pm;
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A Poison Tree by William Blake

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

-su rin

3:03 pm;
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why can't i think of anything to write nowadays? not that i have a boring social life or anything. it's just that, when i have inspiration i don't have pen and paper (or in this case, internet or microsoft words) to pen it down. and when i do have all the equipment around, i don't have inspiration or i can't remember what i was going to write about.

"i can't stop talking, laughing or singing. even for two minutes" this phrase was taken from reginia mak wai yee. we were eating, then i started to talk and she went like "i knew it1 you couldn't keep quiet even for awhile" oh well, right back at her. i'll just copy her trademark line : whatever sia.

-su rin

6:12 pm;
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what's the actual meaning of best friends forever? we pledge that every year but do we actually mean it? i never told anyone the partial truth of me going to yamaha for music. why i was so adamant on getting home tuition instead. i missed you. i wanted to see you if you were there even. then the week before last i finally did. but what had happened to our friendship? the one we pledged to be best friends forever more than three years ago? all we did --- i did --- was to touch your shoulder, smile and reminisce about how you can be so much like you after all those years. after that, i just walked off without even a second glance. and when i did glance back, you were gone. laughing with your other friends. so did we really mean it when we pledged best friends forever? sure, we may be "friends forever" but whatever happened to the best? i guess i never really given up on you, even after we went to separate classes and schools after that. do you know that my dad still thinks of you. when asked about my best friends, your name is among the first few to pop out of his mouth? he doesn't givve a damn about my current best friends. just about my old ones. but i guess, deep inside my heart, i still thought that we could still be best friends after all these years, but i guess not. never after all. you've moved on. and i guess i have too. but i guess we'll have to think again before we plegde BEST FRIENDS FOREVER.
-su rin

5:01 pm;
Still waiting for you-

I am cow, hear me moo.
I weigh twice as much as you,
And I look good on the barbecue.
Yogurt, curd, cream cheese, and butter's,
Made from liquid from my udders.
I am cow, I am cow, hear me moo!

I am cow, eating grass.
Methane gas comes out my ass,
And out my muzzle when I belch.
Oh the ozone layer is thinner,
From the outcome of my dinner.
I am cow, I am cow, I've got gas.

I am cow, here I stand,
Far and wide upon this land.
And I am living everywhere,
From B.C. to Newfoundland.
You can squeeze my teats by hand.
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow.

I am cow, I am cow, I am cow.

I Am Cow by Arrogant Worms

4:20 pm;
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the soft sratching of pens, the flutter of papers. then, a low but commanding voice, "five more minutes." more fluttering of papers, dropping of pens. all eyes were on that large clock. just as sudden, the alarm rang; signaling recess. a voice rang out in the examination hall, "dismissed, you may go!" the slammings of pens on the tables could be hear clearly around the hall. chaos resumes. flurrying activities all around me as i seem invisible to the world. a few hi's here and there, but i seem oblivious to them. then peace resumes once again. last minute students rush out to queue. and i'm alone once again. alone in the corridor. my never wavering stare directed at the staircase, hoping you will show up. but no. i wait again. you still don't show. maybe you're late? no, you're never late. you're just gone. gone from my life. you died and on that day you died, i died with you. to forever more.
-su rin

10:01 am;
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this sucks. ice skating was fun and all. but the aftermath just sucks. oh my aching body. scary at first but once you get the hang of it, all your fears go away; except when i'm going too fast of course :P. then after we went bugis for lunch, took neoprints and went home to take a nice hot bath. my feet still hurts. now all i wanna do is to climb into bed and take a nice long nap, but no. i'm here blogging even after the protest of my poor feet. ouch. looking forward to a day in the house, without my parents. at least there'll be some peace and quiet. unless my sister turns up the volume to thirty again. just too hypocritical. she sits right next to me and says she can hear my mp3. duh. i'm in the room next to her with the door closed and i can hear each enuciation clearly. *sighs* hypocritical people all over.
-su rin

5:59 pm;
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envision this. tall coconut trees towering high above you. cool sea breezes softly hitting you. you sit in the corner in the shade where you can take in the beautiful scenery. you sip from your coconut drink and take in all there is around you. white soft sand all around you making soft footprints as you walk on it. beautiful crystal clear waters making small waves on the shore; it makes you wanna jump in and just lay back in it.

did you guess my riddle? i'm thinking about pulau tioman right now. amazingly, there is NO litter there. i miss being there; it's so beautiful. you can practically see through the water, it's clear. then of course, i'm imagining a pulau tioman that could never be. in my dreams i'm always alone basking in the sun or with afew of my friends. but pulau tioman is always so crowded. *sigh* so much for peace and tranquility with a pretty isolated island to go with it.
-su rin

9:52 am;
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haha! i got my thai name from nattawadee! it goes like this: ซูริน
i don't know if it'll come out right on blogger but oh well! thai name... same as suelin's one so i guess she can copy from me too! lol. today was super fun! had debate training and mr loke gave as a paper with some poems on it (coincidently it two of the four poems given were from maya angelou; the one that we did for l.a.p: still i rise and phenomenal women) we saw the seniors debate over whether to abolish the death penalty or not in singapore and it was really funny! then all the "small girls aka little kids" had a go at it. different topics of course. i had the bad luck of going up against our coach! i was the government team and my house believes that singapore should have women serving national service. wow! a topic i strongly oppose against! i think that women should NOT serve. well, i'd rather they make it a choice cos' some people want to serve, others don't. i'm one of the latters as you can tell already. then he gave us two other topics to prepare. this house believes that there should NOT be a casino in singapore and this house believes that the internet does more harm than good to the students. too bad i'm not going to the next one. i made plans for that day already (too bad). then me saman and virina went to saman's aunt's shop (which was sooooo adorable! japanese style!) to do our nails (for the fun of it of cos'!). saman's aunt is sooo nice. she says that all taurus give "good customer service" (she and virina were tauruses) and that librains were a people's person (means to like to go adn meet other people; which is true about me [:). so tired right now. been terribly busy lately.
-su rin

10:22 pm;
Still waiting for you-

going genting today so i'm gonna make it quick. just came back from swimming, i passed intermediate level 2!!! yay!!! the coach said that i improved alot!!! the hardest test was the treading part. i kept my face up, not my face. lol. omg!!! something's up here... i think someone hacked my email account cos' heidi said that i talked to her just now but i only just came back!!! okay... i'm seriously hyperventilating right now... this is too freaky to be true!!! oh my gawds... well, i changed the pass already and i guess that's pretty safe. anyways, going to rush in some last minute packing.
-su rin

4:54 pm;
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yesterday we had the teacher's day celebrations, although teacher's day was supposed to be today... gawds! i'm so freakin' tired cos' i woke up at 7.55. siao i know, but i must be getting used to waking up so early! and i dunno if that's a good sign or a bad one.

well, anyways... we had this mass which was incredibly funny yet boring at the same time. then after we had the telematches. we were practically screaming for our class to run faster. i think i've shouted myself hoarse. then after that, we had a fantastic lunch/recess [i think i ate enough to last till dinner] and i practically had to past everyone the food [not that i'm complaining of cos'] then we went back to class and despite what the teachers said about having classes, we didn't have one!!! me and virina wen crazy making a cheque for teo hui lin, then teo had one of her rare touche moments and spoke some words of regret about how she had to leave to help the sec fours and all. a touching moment when she said that she'd rather be with onefour more than anything then, swear by the bible and everything. awww...

well, when school was dismissed. we joey and cheryl went to tampines and had lunch. we took taxi home cos' it was raining. short but fun! and that was how i spent my first teacher's day in kc! wanted to go back but they told us not to cos' no one would be there and all. (:
-su rin

9:39 am;
Still waiting for you-