The Lovesong Writer

Had a fun debate about Singapore Idol this morning. It was terribly funny, especially the last part. Then went lunching with Amanda, Sam and Ning at KFC (as usual) and started our gossiping session about the student council thing. Ningrong was crazy - who invited her anyway? - and started laughing in the middle of KFC and everybody kept looking at us. YES, thanks dear friend for drawing unwanted attention to us(: so I fetched her back. See? Ain't I nice? HAHA.

Oh well, I'm getting bored.

as if nothing really matters.

4:27 pm;
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My fling with maths has officially ended, well, unofficially that is. Oh Maths was a bomb today, literally. I only knew how to do like, less than 10 of the 35 questions on the paper. If only I had my good friend - the calculator - with me. If you were wondering, I only completed 25 questions, randomly shaded of course.

And what have I learnt from all these? Maths olympians really like 2006(:

DAMN. Have to report in school at 6.45am on friday. That's earlier than normal school hours. Have to make a trip to SJI for rehearsal. AWWW. Haha. I'd rather have attended choir than stone for 2 and a 1/2 hours in 3.2 anyway. From what my dear friends have told me, it was a bore. But still, anything is better than the former at the moment.

bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow.

4:33 pm;
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Awww... I'm so glad my Joey-ish, blue spell has passed. If truth be told, I was down with the blues since thursday. But today I awoke with a light heart and knew the spell had passed. Now aren't you glad? It was beginning to occur to me that I was acting a little like Joey. Tsk. Well, several well-wishers said I was off, and weren't they right?

Oh anyway, just be glad that the spell has passed and I'm back to being cheerful(: I know I am. And I'm looking forward to doing English homework. Somehow, this sudden down in the blues has came with its vantage point as well. It was ideas galore, if to put it in words.

are you my kindred spirit?

2:41 pm;
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It is very coincidental when the parents of two long "lost" friends would suddenly meet and remember each other. It just gets juicier when the two friends can't remember each other and live at opposite ends of the country. It's a greater and more mysterious force called Fate. But there's a lesson in there somewhere, I guess. That even though we might have not seen each other in a long time, and even though we might have made new friends along the way; it just does good to remember the old ones, for if you do not, Fate will throw you back together.

It's time for the wild partying again(: too bad it's only for a month. You do get rather envious of our western halves when you find out that they get two months. And you do get rather tired out when you find that about two weeks of holidays have just gone into the school's deposit box. And you get rather peeved when the teachers assign you work over the holidays. But I guess this is our pain for even getting a holiday. Who was the one who came up with "no pain, no gain"?

cars speed, traffic's greed.

10:58 am;
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What can I say? This is the first time I'm listening to a local band. Kinda shocking isn't it? But Ronin rocked our school and I'm hooked.

The sunset is many wonderful a thing. It's enchantment, love, and hope stirred in for half an hour. The many nameless shades of pink, peach, azure, and red captures your attention and you just have to stop and marvel in its magnificence. But just as quickly as it has touched oneself, it's gone, and one feels empty and desolate inside.

Ronin Riot.

6:30 pm;
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I wonder how it feels like to get smashed. Not that I'd ever have the guts to do that. I doubt I could even down one can of beer without running for water. TSKTSK. I think my parents wonder what happened to the sweet innocence of a young child's mind. OR my mind in general. Haha. With all the results coming in, it would do good to just "drown your sorrows" in alcohol and liquor.

It was the checking of exam scripts today. We checked science, history and DnT. We didn't even check history. The teacher gave up. Bleh. I don't want to get back chinese. I just know I'm gonna fail. But I do want to get back lit though. LITLITLITLITLIT. Dear lit. Darling lit. -;-

living each day in fear and regret.

5:09 pm;
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WAAH. I overselpt today. Amanda rang me up to come for debate and I was still half asleep. Haha. We met some Beijing debaters today. Quite cool(: they gave us in depth on China. After that, Sam, Amanda and I went to KFC to eat lunch. AHAH. Then Sam stayed with me till choir started. Thanks girl, love ya lots! I got my pencil box. Thank god for that! Alina and Sam followed me back to school until choir started, I feel so bad. HEHEH.

Choir was normal, until the tour group people left): I still say I wanna go for the tour. But the upside is I got to go home early(: and the whole (remaining) sop 2 gathered outside to wish Qing Yu goodbye before she leaves for China :P

Bleh... Today was just boring. BoringboringboringboringBORING. Getting back results tomorrow. I don't want to get it back. NONONONONO. That will just suck. I think I'm gonna fail Chinese. The folks will be mad. But guess what? I don't care.

there's a thing called love;

6:23 pm;
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I think I have a mind disorder. I can't make up my mind on things. I do know one thing I've made up my mind on anyway. It's those shorts at FOX. But I didn't get them): but that's okay. I can't make up my mind on jeans though. POO. Ms. Fussy Pots.

Went to meet Reggie, Sam and Payal at Kembangan MRT then left for TM to meet Virina. Wasn't it such a coincidence that ALL of us wore skirts and jackets? LOL. Payal and I wore jeanskirts and the funny thing is that if we had told Reggie and Sam that we were wearing jeanskirts, they'd be wearing jeanskirts too. We kept seeing our hated school everywhere though): BOO. And all throughout the train ride, we were talking REALLY REALLY loud about them. HAH. Those people must have been deaf not to hear us.

Then Reggie, Sam and I hogged the neoprint machine. The first one was faulty and we wasted our money): so we took another set again. Payal and Virina got pissed and went to Pizzahut first to eat. After we finally finished there, we strolled to Pizzahut. BOO. There wasn't alot of time left and Sam and I gobbled our food down (no fair! Reggie helped Sam. BOO REGGIE! LOL.). Payal was down there pestering and pestering us to hurry. HAH. Halfway through our meals, we burst into a birthday song for Payal. I think the whole restaurant was looking at us. Did I mention that our hated school sat at the table next to us?

BOO PAYAL. I had to get popcorn after all that gobbling. My tummy hurts! It was still commercials when it started. There were like, two whole rows of KCians there. And it seemed as if we were the loudest when it came to laughing. Aquamarine is funny. Our hated school spoiled the mood by sitting in the row in front of us. BLEH.

After the movie we wandered around the TM and Century looking for Sam's beads (refer to May 12 post). WAAH. Then the "party" host herself went off early. And there were 4. We wandered and wandered for 2 hours before going home. Reggie is crazy with mood rings. She bought 3 of them! In addition to the other 2 she already has. WHACKED. I'm starting so many projects this holidays. Pencil case, exercise (as if I'm gonna do it), reading, guitar? MAHA. I doubt that I can get any of them done. But just to be safe, I'm adding a few more: charms hunting and jewellery hunting. I will so drag my mom out to pay for all these stuff :P

insanity is hereditary.

you get them from your kids.

6:22 pm;
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Sometimes we disillusion ourselves from what we really want and what we really need. Sometimes, what we really want is really the opposite of what we really need. I used to think that I knew what I needed, and yet now I don't. I wished this never happened. It would have been so much easier. I turned a blind eye towards this raging problem for so long, it became a menace instead. I somehow wish I could turn back the clock to prevent this from happening. But we know better than that. And regrets become opportunities in disguise.

STOOPID. I spent the entire night crying over I Not Stupid Too): such a sad movie. TSK. And it wasn't those sorry sniffles either, it was a chorus of unrestrained sobs. Somehow I couldn't hold myself. I thought it was silly when I first heard that practically everybody was crying after the movie but now I see why. You just can't help it. It's an emotion we must not deny ourselves. Then you called and made me cry more): with your sad sad news. I never thought it possible, but YES. I've grown to love you too. And I find myself childish and pettish again. You're right. And I was wrong. But you aren't always right. I hope this newfound respect keeps. Or I don't think I'll be able to make it through the end of the year with you. I'll just go ballastic. You're all coming back tomorrow. And I'm glad. It was a shortwhile but I did miss you much.

confusion, befuddlement, and now we convalesce.

11:05 pm;
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Late night blogging, as usual. LOL. Just came back from Virina's party. It was the party of never-ending beads. AHAHAH. Ask Saman and Reggie (the sexy mama). HAH... Reggie and I made back and forth trips from Virina's condo and East Point 4 times! And had fun in the pool with our jeans rolled up taking pictures until the security guard came and chased us out. HUMPH. What a party poooooooooo-per. Before that we were at Tampines Mall and Parkway.

SHORTSSHORTSHORTSSHORTS. Need them BADDD. I saw a nice white pair in FOX. But it was so ex ): boo me. I am going to drag my mom there to get it for me. YESSH WORSS. Or maybe i shall get the cotton B.U.M. ones.

I think Reggie's mom is funny. Well, I think Reggie is funny too. 'SMS in proper english!' Or else we won't understand a thing dear girl. HAHA. I couldn't stop giggling in her car. (:

I got two new books. Anne of Windy Willows and Anne's House of Dreams. It had a reasonable pricetag. AHA.

I think I'm going to Bugis on monday. Maybe I can find shorts there (: SEND ME PICSPICSPICS people!

twas i lain naked through your eyes.

10:30 pm;
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OH GOD. OH MY EFFING GOD. This is just UTTERLY horrible! The ONE movie I look forward to this year is rated NC16 in Singapore. But guess what? USA teens get to watch it because it's PG13 there. I don't find that fair! The Da Vinci Code was a success in literature worldwide. If we can read it, we definitely can watch it. Maybe they should give a rating on books now HUH?

disastrous!

1:59 pm;
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I sit and stare, sit and stare. I know the exams are over, I should be rejoicing. But somehow I can't do anything, only wait. For what? That's what the little voice in the back of my head wants to know. I'm supposed to have a stellar weekend - one without my parents. But it isn't as happy as it seems to be now. I need some enlightenment. I'm just tired.

Yes, that's it.

So today was orals. I think I have a reason to like Mrs. Lingesh now. Yes, I like her INFINITELY now. She wasn't as bad as I imagined. In fact, she was alot better than I imagined. Can you believe it? She was really nice. I started smiling as I approached the table and she seemed pleased about that, she even remarked that I took her advice. I felt immensely comfortable. She gave me high marks, and before Part III (conversation) she even told me how I fared. Then she told me to aim for FULL marks because that should be my aim and that it was 40% of the English grade.

Mrs. Lingesh makes direct eye contact with you and somehow, it isn't as intimidating as it seems. It was actually nice, a sincere gesture. She adopts a patient, motherly tone when she's talking - well, at least that's what I felt. And after every component, she gives you a mountain load of encouragement, that was nice. And to think I used to dislike her because I thought her fierce. I guess people aren't really what they seem.

I went to TM with Cheryl after orals. We ended at about 8.30. But we missed the bus so we only reached there at 10, the shops hadn't even opened yet. We walked around Metro for the first half hour before heading to Isetan. And I nearly finished pressie hunting. I've already gotten pressies for Virina and Payal. Hmmm... But what would YOU like? Well anyway, then we went to the foodcourt to eat. Halfway through our meal, this really whacked guy started whooping. The whole foodcourt was staring but he didn't care at all. He just dashed into the personnel's area (he was an employee) and came charging out with a dustbin and cloth shouting 'chiong ah'. It was hilarious. We think he's mental. HAHA.

heavily broken.

1:14 pm;
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I guess we Singaporeans can say we have something to be proud of. I was just sitting on the top level of a double decker right in front. And as the bus was entering my street, it just struck me that the trees gave the neighbourhood a nice surburbian touch. I think that the fact that I don't stay near flats accounts for something too. LOL. But flats are nice. They give you such a homey feeling, like one big family.

Well, I guess exams are over - well, not quite. Only english orals left. I can't very well study that can I? But I will practice and practice and practice it until my parents find it irritating. I guess you can say that the implication of exams has slow effects on me. Where people might be getting their insecure attacks before exams, I only started getting it before Chinese Paper II. Either it's the stress of the exams coming to me, or I'm just terribly afraid of Chinese.

I think the latter works best.

Exams gives a sense of thrillingness though. Not the kinds you get before a concert, or even after the satisfaction of a well-ran concert. It's those kind which gives you the pleasure in which you hold the knowledge to the answer. But now that it's over, I'm immensely ready for fun. YESYES. Starting Friday.

Sometimes I frustrate that exams end so early. Nothing opens at 9! I guess it's safe to say we carried out tradition as well as possible. HAHA. Tradition? Having breakfast and talking for an hour. I feel glad somehow. Yes, I'm glad I do.

there's no mistaking the language of the heart.

1:15 pm;
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I find this world full of *** people. No offence. I've been finding too many people gay already. Let's see, I think people who use TOO MANY smileys are gay. In a girl, tolerable but irritating; in a guy, TOTAL GAYNESS. LOL. And I'm speaking from second-person perspective. I also think that people who ACT overly-hyper are so gay and insecure. I'm trying not to think so critically of people now. HAHA. I wonder, which is further Clementi or Choa Chu Kang? I need to find out so I can stop argueing. Haha.

I just read this real funny book where clueless children of eleven write letters and say they're gonna 'lovemake' alot. HAHA. Such innocent little clueless minds of eleven. They have no idea what it actually means! I can bet that some people are DYING to just hop to it like bunnies though, ain't I right? HAHA. GOD, Joey, I hatehatehate you now. I'm hungry, and I want coke! Where are you? Okay, you're here(:

CLFC. the knight in shining armour comes riding on his white charge to save the damsel in distress(:

2:10 pm;
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Get below 60 points in total to be considered an angel.
tagged by CHERYL.

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
TOTAL: 4

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
TOTAL: 8 (GOD. i never knew until now)

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) received a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
TOTAL: 2

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent CD
TOTAL: 3

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbour
50) had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 3

51) snuck into someone else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush
TOTAL: 5

61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
TOTAL: 3

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harassed
80) been verbally harassed
TOTAL: 3

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
TOTAL: 7 (OMG. dear me.)

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
TOTAL: 7 (DEARDEARDEAR.)

GRAND TOTAL: 45. Not to much of an angel eh?

Next five: Amanda Choo (i wonder wonder wonder), Amanda Lee, Joy, Sara, Saman.

1:02 pm;
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I've broken my resolve and blogged. Today, well rather yesterday, was the day of metaphorical words, similies and personafications. Haha. Lit day! I love lit, and I love studying for it. It's just so lovely not having to rely on cold hard facts but rather on the whims and fancies of your thoughts. I could crap there for hours. And I bet if not for the other three essays I had to do, I would have written ten pages long of words for the first question!

But I loved the dingo poem. Dingo Dingo by Jack Davis. That was the unseen poetry. It's ironic isn't it? It was the poem I fell asleep on the friday I studied literature. Haha. But I wished that we were given more time to write. Now that I can think clearer, I can conjure up several more points about that poem. Haha. But that poem stirred something deep within my heart. I guess it's just the cruelty of survival, but I can't help but feel sorry for the dingo, the ewe, and even the hunter! It's so cruel and Jack Davis use of repition of the never-ending circle of life stirs that. HUMPH. There I go again, yet another point I could have used.

"The real poem is the soul within them... and that beautiful bit is the
soul of an unwritten poem. It is not every day one sees a soul... even a poem." - excerpt from Anne of Avonlea.

davy-boy.

12:11 am;
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The Old Home Calls by L.M. Montgomery
COME back to me, little dancing feet that roam the wide world o'er,
I long for the lilt of your flying steps in my silent rooms once more;
Come back to me, little voices gay with laughter and with song,
Come back, little hearts beating high with hopes, I have missed and mourned you long.

My roses bloom in my garden walks all sweet and wet with the dew,
My lights shine down on the long hill road the waning twilights through,
The swallows flutter about my eaves as in the years of old,
And close about me their steadfast arms the lisping pine trees fold.

But I weary for you at morn and eve, O children of my love,
Come back to me from your pilgrim ways, from the seas and plains ye rove,
Come over the meadows and up the lane to my door set open wide,
And sit ye down where the red light shines from my welcoming fire-side.

I keep for you all your childhood dreams, your gladness and delights,
The joy of days in the sun and rain, the sleep of care-free nights;
All the sweet faiths ye have lost and sought again shall be your own,
Darlings, come to my empty heart–I am old and still and alone!

Lit's tomorrow. I won't blog no more. No sireeeeeeeee. I shall exercise self-control and blog only AFTER the holidays.

Anne of Green Gables is the sweetest creation of child life yet written - Francis Wilson

2:39 pm;
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I can finally cut some slack. Well, my version of cut slack that is. History is finally over (thank god for that). Tomorrow's science. Let's see... Am I prepared? ... Pretty much nothing I can do at this point in time. And after's literature. Haha. I'll go wild with the books. Then Maths Paper II (there's a slacker), Chinese Paper II (nothing much there either), DnT (I'll just memorise the materials) and finally the ultimate slack in slack! Orals! Haha. Then I can watch AI. And I can talk and talk and talk and talk without anybody scolding me!

I have a new favourite author, L.M. Montgomery! Her poems are simply divine. I love her Anne books. HAHA. Joey, READ THIS! You're supposed to lend me Anne of Avonlea and I'll lend you Anne of the Island when you lend it to me! HAH! L.M. Montgomery reminds me of Louise Mack. Both has a similar style of writing, descriptive(positively beautiful and downright romantic ones!) flowy language of Nature. It's just so sweet. I love a good read. This is a fantastic one. I can almost smell the roses and taste the wine! A good book is one which makes me cry and feel.

flowers spring to blossom where she walks.

3:33 pm;
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